Tired

Its hard to feel always tired but not so much physically but more mentally. Sometimes its kinda scary cuz it feels sometimes like i will end up loosing it and that is definitely what my family needs. Being pulled in so so many directions and my decision has to be the right one which way should i go first so the others won't get hurt if i dont go to them first. Its like damm if you do damm if you don't. Got to keep everything in check and everybody in check and try to make everybody happy. Little do they know that by the end of the day i have not done anything they have wanted me to do or accomplised anything so where does the time go. I feel numb, feel like a robot that just moves and does stuff but can't have feelings cuz its too much work if i do and there is so much to do already. Sometimes is so hard to get out of bed is so much work. Wish i can have one day and not think at all just sit and not say a word the whole day, just silence. That would be good.